lately, i have felt like i've been juggling about 5 different things and that if i looked away for even for a second, everything would crash, unceremoniously, to the floor.
this illusion of self-importance was the thing that came crashing, mercifully, to the floor. i left for 6 whole days. i went to a land without internet (and, therefore, without email), without reliable cell coverage, without reliable electricity for that matter. i played in the snow. i went for long walks with my dog. i baked cookies. i tried out the ice cream maker that my brother got for me for christmas. i spent 5 blissful days with my family, whom i haven't seen since july.
i came back to the hospital yesterday and found everything just as i had left it.
i guess i can look away after all.
this is an object lesson in humility that i think all residents must learn. i'm just glad i learned it while i still have 174 days left to enjoy it.